Autumn Allergy and Happy Belated Birthday, Jim

Things have been twirling downwards lately.

I suppose I am not content about a lot of things, especially my work environment. I feel disappointed and underappreciated (don't think it's a word but heck...). People around me are trying to be supportive but I don't think their way of support is right for me. So far, I can only think of two people who have somewhat given me support, at least the kind I need the most. Even my own family is doing a crappy job. No wonder I keep saying how friends I have made during the past 15 years are more my family than the real one. It's cruel to say so but I haven't changed my thinking for the past 15 years. I'd thought that things would change as I grew older; but that's not the case at all. Perhaps it does take more time but I am an impatient person.

At time like this, I really need to take a walk in a place like Nachmarkt in Vienna (see photo). Meeting friends to have simple but satisfying food, along with tons of strangers in a lively and diverse environment. Nothing like this here. In Vancouver, I used to go to Granville Island even during the week to have a stroll, to watch people, to discover new food and to stare into the water. It always had a positive effect on me. I guess I kind of missed those days.